Why Am I Hiding?

Fact Sheet

  • Hosted by Susan Ruttan
  • Emmy Award winner
  • One-hour documentary
  • Premiered 1990

This one-hour documentary on survivors of rape and incest focuses on the recoveries of male and female survivors and their families, with additional insights from therapists, counselors and the State's Attorney's office. Hosted by Susan Ruttan with music by Suzanne Vega, Why Am I Hiding has been broadcast on Chicago PBS stations WTTW (where it premiered) and WYCC and seen nationally on cable.

Related Information

  • HMS Media's first documentary
  • Winner of the Chicago International Film Festival Gold Plaque

Notes and Quotes

Why Am I Hiding is powerful, thought-provoking and informative.
—Chicago Tribune

We have been viewing educational films about sexual assault for many years and have not, until this film, found what we wanted: a film that was not victim blaming and would engage young adults.
—Northwestern University

Why Am I Hiding is a hard hitting documentary.
—Irv Kupcinet, The Chicago Sun-Times

Why Am I Hiding has a novel and sensitive approach to sexual victimization. The producers have generated a training tool that could be considered a primer in the field, and a must for anyone who seeks to understand this type of violence and its impact on both adult and child victims.
—Mt. Sinai Hospital Medical Center